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Showing posts with label guilty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label guilty. Show all posts

Monday, April 22, 2013

Double-Edged Sword



My father was a sculptor. His medium of choice was wood. He was also one of the most patient men in the world. Anybody who asked for a lesson would immediately find themselves situated behind a fresh piece of wood, holding a chisel. The very first thing my father would tell everyone is, “Always cut away from yourself.” And everyone would smile, nod and think to themselves, “Well of course, everybody knows that.”
The lesson would begin and somewhere along the thirty minute mark, my father would be carefully bandaging his newest student’s hand because they had forgotten the first rule of sculpting – “Always cut away from yourself.”

I wish I could say that, since I heard the rule so often, that I learned the lesson best … Sadly, no. I can’t count how many times the sharpened piece of metal I am using to cut something has turned itself on me – even when I could swear I have been cutting away from myself. It’s almost like the tool I’m using has two sharp edges, one facing toward me as well as the one facing away.

Hm. That makes me think of something I was just reading in the first and second chapters of the book of Amos. Through the prophet Amos, God told the Israelites that He was going to punish all the “heathen” nations that surrounded Israel and Judah – Damascus, Gaza, Tyre, Edom, Ammon, and Moab. I can imagine the Israelites cheering because these people who they had been fighting with for centuries were finally going to “get what they deserved!”

Have you ever felt that way – glad when someone who was doing bad things finally got caught and punished? Especially if some of those bad things have been directed at you, right? But even when it’s not about us, most of us hate to see someone or something (like an animal) victimized. The news is full of stories that cause us to become angry and demand justice. We want the bully to get his comeuppance and we’re glad when we see it happens.

There’s a problem with that whole, “yeah, they got what they deserved,” attitude. If we keep reading in Amos, when we get to Amos 2:4, the knife of justice turns back toward the Jew’s themselves.
“This is what the Lord says: ‘For three sins of Judah, even for four, I will not relent. Because they have rejected the law of the Lord and have not kept his decrees, because they have been led astray by false gods, the gods their ancestors followed, I will send fire on Judah that will consume the fortresses of Jerusalem.’
“This is what the Lord says: ‘For three sins of Israel, even for four, I will not relent. They sell the innocent for silver,     and the needy for a pair of sandals. They trample on the heads of the poor as on the dust of the ground and deny justice to the oppressed. Father and son use the same girl     and so profane my holy name. They lie down beside every altar on garments taken in pledge. In the house of their god     they drink wine taken as fines.’” Amos 2:4-8
Oh, bummer. Can you imagine? Here the Israelites are feeling all superior because God was taking care of their enemies, but then He lets them know that they’re in trouble too.

Those other nations were condemned, it looks like in Amos, for committing atrocities in war. Terrible? Yes, Judah and Israel were guilty because they seemed to be using their status as God’s people to take advantage of people who couldn’t defend themselves.
“Hear this word, people of Israel, the word the Lord has spoken against you—against the whole family I brought up out of Egypt: ‘You only have I chosen of all the families of the earth; therefore I will punish you for all your sins.’” Amos 3:1-2
What is it that Spiderman says? “With great power, comes great responsibility.” I think the same thing could be said for “great privilege,” don’t you?

God gave the Children of Israel privilege and power as His chosen people. Their role was to have pointed the people who saw them to the One True God and to portray Him accurately. They didn’t do that, in fact, the Jewish nation repeatedly rejected God altogether while still claiming the privilege. They subjugated their own poor and defenseless and rejected any who could not increase the nation’s worldly status.

Are we, as Christians, able to stand up to the same scrutiny that God gave to the Jewish nation? How are we using our great privilege? Are we carrying God’s message of love and redemption to the people who need it most?

Yes, we send missionaries to all parts of the world to share the gospel, but are we doing anything for the people nearest us who also need to be touched by the grace of God?

Mark Buchanan, author of “Messy, Costly, Dirty Ministry” describes an evening that changed his perspective.
“The Tuesday night prayer meeting at Brooklyn Tabernacle felt like skydiving into a tornado, exhausting and exhilarating all at once. I'd read about the meeting in Pastor Jim Cymbala's book Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire, but nothing prepared me for the event itself: 3,500 God-hungry people storming heaven for two hours.
“Afterward, my friend and I went out to dinner with the Cymbalas. In the course of the meal, Jim turned to me and said, ‘Mark, do you know what the number one sin of the church in America is?’ I wasn't sure, and the question was rhetorical anyhow. ‘It's not the plague of internet pornography that is consuming our men. It's not that the divorce rate in the church is roughly the same as society at large.’
“Jim named two or three other candidates for the worst sin, all of which he dismissed. ‘The number one sin of the church in America,’ he said, ‘is that its pastors and leaders are not on their knees crying out to God, “Bring us the drug-addicted, bring us the prostitutes, bring us the destitute, bring us the gang leaders, bring us those with AIDS, bring us the people nobody else wants, whom only you can heal, and let us love them in your name until they are whole.”’
“I had no response. I was undone. He had laid me bare, found me out, and exposed my fraudulence. I was the chief of sinners. I had never prayed, not once, for God to bring such people to my church. So I went home and repented. I stopped sinning. I began to cry out for ‘those nobody wants.’”[1]
When we see the bullies of the world, whether they are individuals or nations, we cry out for justice. But we have to remember that God’s justice cuts both ways. We who have been privileged to be called His children, have a huge responsibility to bring God’s love to as many people as possible. How many of us have prayed that our church will be filled with the unchurched?
“Then he told his servants, ‘We have a wedding banquet all prepared but no guests. The ones I invited weren’t up to it. Go out into the busiest intersections in town and invite anyone you find to the banquet.’ The servants went out on the streets and rounded up everyone they laid eyes on, good and bad, regardless. And so the banquet was on—every place filled.” Matthew 22:8-10


[1] Mark Buchanan, "Messy, Costly, Dirty Ministry," Leadershipjournal.net (5-15-09)

Friday, January 28, 2011

Guilty Refuge

Commentary on the Sabbath School Lesson dated 1.29.11

Have you ever been caught up in some activity that you knew was not right, but you rationalized it somehow so that you didn’t feel guilty? Rationalization takes a lot of mental and spiritual energy to maintain, but most of the time, the guilt drifts back into your consciousness often enough that you might gradually start to believe that you can’t be forgiven for what you’ve done.
I remember several times rationalizing things that I was doing, trying to make them okay.  It’s kind of strange, but during those times, I still loved God and still prayed.  What happened, though, was that I started making these little rules for myself:  I could sing the song “Jesus loves the little children” but I wouldn’t sing “Jesus loves me” or any other song that expressed Jesus’ love for me.  When I prayed, I could pray for other people, but I didn’t allow myself to ask for God’s help for myself… and I certainly couldn’t ask for forgiveness! 

Maybe I’m crazy, but looking back, it almost seems like I was using my guilty conscience to keep God at a “safe” distance.  Kind of weird, I guess, but I think most of us, at some time or another in our lives, have tried to rationalize something away.  We realize we shouldn’t be doing whatever it is, but we aren’t prepared to ask for God’s help yet because we know that He’s going to ask us to stop our wrong activity… so we get caught in a loop of sinning, rationalizing, and guilt. 

Sometimes people decide it’s just not worth the effort and walk away from God; sometimes we hide behind our guilt for so long that we just slip away.  We don’t feel like we’re good enough to go to church, so we start skipping out more and more often, until we realize we haven’t been to church in months.  And if nobody from church calls to ask if everything’s ok, we decide that we were right to stay away.

Eventually though, we have to make the decision one way or the other because we just can’t carry the guilt any longer.  A CBS.new.com article published an article that illustrates that point:  
“What’s worse than being trapped behind prison bars? Trying to live while avoiding capture.
"Sergei was a Latvian prison convict with ten months left to serve on his seven-year burglary sentence, when he decided to escape. But even after years of freedom, the escapee couldn’t relax. ‘Worry over being caught was proving too stressful.’ He worked several jobs and moved into an apartment with his girlfriend, but Sergei was constantly looking over his shoulder.
“In a move that surprised prison officials, Sergei showed up at the minimum-security facility and turned himself in five years after he first escaped.”[1]
Guilt is a tricky thing, isn’t it?  The world would tell us that if we enjoy something, we shouldn’t feel guilty about it.  Some Christians will tell us that if we’re experiencing guilt that our faith is not strong enough. Some Christians would have us believe that we are sinners and should feel guilty for that.  Who’s right?  Does guilt serve any worthwhile purpose or is it just a bothersome emotion that keeps us from enjoying life?

I believe (you might disagree with me) that guilt is not just uncomfortable, but motivational.  This discomfort can lead people to make a change in their behavior.  A FoxNews.com tells the story of John Jefferson who made a life changing decision because he didn’t want to live with the guilt any more.
“‘After I robbed the place I went to get some dope, and I couldn't even get high. I couldn't even enjoy it.’ These words come from John Jefferson, a man who robbed a Krispy Kreme Doughnut store in 1999 in order to support his drug habit. After robbing the Kingsport, Tennessee store, Jefferson moved to Kansas—but was plagued with guilt. So much so that he decided to confess.
“Jefferson called Detective David Cole of the Kingsport Police Department and identified himself as the robber. In an interview with the Kingsport Times-News, Jefferson explains: ‘I couldn't take it anymore. I was sick and tired of the way I was living. I didn't want to die in a crack house, and I didn't want to smoke crack anymore.’
After pleading guilty, Jefferson served 6 years in jail. Upon his release, he tried several times to return to the store and repay the money he'd stolen, but he kept turning around before he could get there. Finally, Jefferson called David Cole again and asked him to accompany him to the store. Though he'd stolen $300, Jefferson returned $400 in a check made out to St. Jude Children's Research Hospital (at the robbery victim's request).
Afterwards, Jefferson told the paper, ‘I felt like a million bucks when I walked out of that place.’[2]

Which brings me to my next questions…Why would we waste even one second on guilt when forgiveness is so close, and Jesus is so eager to give it?

Look at this example of what just earthly forgiveness will do: 
“When Shannon Ethridge was just 16 years old, an act of forgiveness and love changed her life forever. While driving to her high school one day, Ethridge ran over Marjorie Jarstfar, a woman who was riding her bicycle along a country road. Marjorie died as a result, and Ethridge, who was found completely at fault by authorities, was consumed by intense guilt. She contemplated suicide several times, but she never took her life because of the healing response of one man: Gary, Jarstfar's husband.
“Gary forgave the 16-year-old and asked the attorney to drop all charges against her, saving her from a probable guilty verdict. Instead, he simply asked that Ethridge continue on in the godly footsteps that his wife had taken. ‘You can't let this ruin your life,’ Gary told her more than 20 years ago. ‘God wants to strengthen you through this. In fact, I am passing Marjorie's legacy on to you.’
Gary's act of forgiveness showed Ethridge the amazing love of God. Today, Ethridge is the bestselling author of Every Girl's Battle and Every Woman's Battle, and her recent book, Completely His: Loving Jesus Without Limits, helps women overcome guilt-ridden, wounded lives.”[3]

“I will rescue you from your own people and from the Gentiles. I am sending you to them 18 to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’  Acts 26:17-18
Jesus promises to remove every speck of sin and guilt from our lives and fill us with the light of His loving forgiveness.  Amen.


[1] Man Picks Jail Over Girlfriend, CBS.news.com (2-22-05); The Christian Science Monitor (3-14-05); submitted by John Beukema, Western Springs, Illinois
[2] "What Goes Around, Comes Around" FoxNews.com (12-21-05); submitted by Dana Beatty, St. Charles, Illinois
[3] Van Morris, Mount Washington, Kentucky; source: Kevin Jackson, "Christian Author Carries Mantle of the Woman She Killed," www.christianpost.com (6-21-07)